My mom said I was reading Edgar Allan Poe when I was 7. Of course I couldn't understand a lick of it, but I could read it. I used to read to myself out loud when I couldn't sleep at night. I used to read until my voice was raw and groggy and when things fell silent, I felt all alone. I was always lonely. I'm always lonely.
Sometimes I feel this emptiness inside and I don't know where to find this missing part of me. I don't know where to begin looking.
I look to be so consumed by something to fill this lonely piece of me.
I've been lonely since I can remember. I've always been lonely.
I don't want to be lonely anymore.
