It's late.. ish?

It's been a while. I was pretty broken up the last time I blogged and I haven't been much of anything functional as of late. I'm recovering, but still got walls higher than China's. 

Update, ya?

Not too much to type about. Personal shit. Other shit. Blah blah blah. Who cares. I should be getting my acceptance letter soon from UVU. Makes me deeply sad that I can't be in San Fran. Almost sad enough that I don't want to do much school unless its Fashion school. So, I'm settling for Art and Visual Communications. Maybe Fall of next year mom will let me reapply to FIDM. We'll seeeeee. 

Haven't been talking to much of anyone but my immediate friends. Marc and I are still keeping in touch but I'm working on me and he's working on him. Right? (: Losing touch with a lot of people and I'm kind of okay with that. Sucks when it takes something traumatic to happen for you to realize who's there for you and who isn't. I digress.

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Read something on this chick's blog that I found interesting but disappointing at the same time. It makes a lot of sense in some ways..

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

The first person is you; the second person is the one you love most, the third person is the one who loves you most, and the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

First in life, you will meet with the one whom you love most, and learn how love feels. You will learn how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you the most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being love, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn't love you. The one who loves you most is never the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are  you in other people's life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart. At that point in time, when he loves you, he really loves you. But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore. When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't. Same goes, when he loves you no longer, there's not way he can pretend he loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him. If it so happens that you don't love him anymore, do not keep him just save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him. And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life. If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points and the bad. You can't wish for him to become what you like him to be just because you love him.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him. You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad, you will wish to have this person be with you. Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria's. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test; if the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love, they ask each other to swear; to make promises. Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover. These swears and promises are useless. Till the sky falls, till the ocean dries, my love for you will never change! We all know that the sky will never fall and that the ocean will never dry. And if it does happen, will we even be alive?

Be careful when making promises; don't make them if you can't keep them. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.

Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!

Its a little confusing at some points but makes me think a lot about the way I act sometimes. But then again I have a different view about love and I shouldn't base it on something someone else says. Just made me think a little and apply some of it to my own status. 

Interesting..